…a connection with the woman behind the cashier at a supermarket or any stranger she encountered was equally important as a dinner with scholars, kings, CEOs or billionaires. And she could sit equally with any of them and share herself authentically
…a connection with the woman behind the cashier at a supermarket or any stranger she encountered was equally important as a dinner with scholars, kings, CEOs or billionaires. And she could sit equally with any of them and share herself authentically
the pressure is starting to mount and I feel it. I don’t feel it in my body yet but in my forehead and my face. that’s where it starts. I work out 79 hours per day but I still get the tension big time. I think if I’m mindful it won’t get out of control this time. Hopefully.
I’ve gone to yoga the last 7 days out of 8. Additionally, I do intervals every day. Do you see what a freaking wound up person I am?
cancer. move. no job. majorly in the hole money-wise, majorly. selling all my stuff. getting rid of my cat. no caring about certain things I feel like I should. peoplle expecting me to listen to them when I have all of this craziness and tension going on and I have no capacity to listen and they don’t understand. People who I want support from but don’t support me so I have to look for it elsewhere. CANNOT wait to binge drink this weekend. FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK
I’m feeling a little unsure if I can do this potential relationship thing.
Everyday I’m thinking, am I too available to him? Not available enough? Am I doing to much and he will stop respecting me and start losing interest and start to fade away. I feel sick just typing this out.
I don’t know if I can do it. I want to do it but I really cannot stand to feel hurt and rejected again. I’ve been there so many times I’m so afraid to be there again. The feeling - It’s just so desperate and relentless! Ongoing agony for years and years. Ugggh man, neurotic insecure person in a thriving relationship…how the hell is that supposed to work. Feels like a piper dream!
exactly. why would anyone do anything other than exactly what they fucking want. the idea that you have to do anything is completely fucking delusional. where does being “responsible” by our societies terms get you? It will get you to dead just like those of us who are making strides to enjoy our lives. the only responsibility you have is to do what you want and be happy.
